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So many thoughts floating around inside my head

Don't know what to trust

what to dread

some of the many questions that I have no answer for

confuse others even more

My mind is so complex

right now I just want some snacks

All this hysteria is flowing like malaria

caught in an exitless maze

I am not high or doped up

but i am stuck in a daze

I am feeling the effects of some purple haze

that no one gave me

emotions are so numb

all i really want

all i really need is a fat bag of weed

and a bottle of rum

then i'll worry about my thoughts that are making me want to take an axe upside my dome

i just wanna go home.

Sight beyond sight

can you picture this

Mountains of emotion

big enough to fill and ocean

everytime you get the notion

stop and think

when you blink

a new thought will appear

cause you to feel fear

knowing you got nothing left to lose

what will you choose

life or death

will you take your last breath

or deny the demons within control

attempt to make your life whole

open the closet to skeletons you hide

let em all out, no more inside

an open door to look right through

nothing else left to do

just live for yourself

put all the pain and anquish on a shelf

it's time to play the hand the you have been dealt

the past becomes nothing more than a notch on your belt

and you make it somehow someway

yet another day

Feelings of nothing but pain

Depression and aggression

All are driving me insane

Still all the memories that remain

I would not trade away

Only to numb the hurt inside again

Is all I wish would happen

These burdens of grief

bring to me no relief

Dealing with this stress

All these emotions I must suppress

To make it through yet another day

Not sure how but I will find my way

That is all I have to say

Maybe the morrow will bring to me peace

Will make these thoughts cease.

Stupidity

It amazes me

All the drama

The bullshit and lies

Around this place it flies

Everywhere I turn

The more that I learn

Life was much easier before I came here

It's all to blame on the woman I love

I need some guidance from above.

Power, Money and Wealth

are things that I dream of

But theses have not been

dealt to my hand

Bad luck and hard times

are all that I understand

This will all change

Once the stars rearrange

Day in and day out

I hunger for her sweet embrace

Just one more chance to see her

beautiful face

One last chance to hold

her in my arms at night

Reassuring that everything is alright

To wipe away her tears

and fight away her fears

These are things for which I long

To have her home where she belongs

Never will I understand the fates

That constantly parts Soul Mates